Every now and then and it seems during the three days prior, during, and after a full moon I get a terrible urge to quit my shiftworking IT position and start a business of my own, or even worse start another job. I seem to want to "change" things. I seem to want to add stress to my life with a career move. I spend hours researching my idea - checking prospective employers, emailing for quotes on business idea assets, only to watch and feel the urge fade into reality again and go back to work after my days off.
The latest kick was getting a quote on a new 56 seat motor coach so I can write a guy in NY who will help me start my new tour business here in Eastern Canada. Guess what these buses cost? $560,000 each - I thought 5 of them would do. (I will go check my mattress for that little bit of money).
I see this as a psychological problem - wouldn't you?? I have a job (1,000,000's do not). I have a new car, a place to live and usual debts (paid monthly with my current salary), but I need to get out of this crazy shiftworking position every monthly cycle of the moon.
Even with a new car (1 year old) I look for ways to get a new one. I have lost value through depreciation and figure I can move up and save money. Duhhh!!! I call dealerships and look up book-values of my car and always figure I better keep the current one. Sound familiar? Sounds like my job need doesn't it!
Can someone offer some reason why I require change in manic spurts? Is it disatisfaction with my current status in life (Divorced employed 50 year old male with 2 children)? Why would I feel that way? Oh-oh, isn't that mid-life crisis???? Maybe I need to talk with someone. Maybe I need a new job, a re-location. Oops.. I did it again. See, I keep thinking I need to change to avoid reality while making a new stressful one.
Welcome to manic midlife Paul! Or is this reaching to attain a goal? I better nap on it.
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